Don't read on a full tummy!

For those of you who were worried about me. Im OK.... well not really but Im still kicking and breathing. I had to take mija to the ER Saturday night and she had a little surgery done on her butt! hahaha Its not funny but I tell her "Does momma's little booty hurt" and she'll smile at me and say "Yeeeeeees" and start laughing. *Sorry mommy moment* It was something like a boil and they had to cut it open and get all the puss and blood out and then they stuffed it with thin strips of bandages. My baby was in pain the whole time I had her. It hurt me to see her cry everytime I had to change her bandages but it had to be done. She is getting use to the fact she has a bo-bo on her booty but she is a child and sometime forgets that and she hurts herself. Then I practically cursed the doctor out because I had to "rush her to the ER" again because the bandages that the doctors stuffed in her, she pulled out and it started leaking and I called and they told me to bring her down there and they would have to restuff the wound. So I did and we didn't see a doctor until 11 something and all that waiting we did just to hear him say "Oh just take her a warm bath 3 times a day and make sure it is completely dry before rebandaging it" . OOOOOOO boy that doctor regretted telling me that. I went OFF!! "Why did you have me come down here and waste my time!! I called before I came and you told me to bring her in for surgery and now you want me to walk away and be ok with your answer!!! Im tired, pregnant, I havent slept since Saturday!!" Then he pisses me off even more when he told me "At least she didnt' need surgery again!!" and walked off!! You ASSHOE!!! Im thankful too but damn it I was tired and shouldn't have had to drive down there!! Am I wrong for feeling like that??


Alex has this weird idea that "Im still his girl" and I have to remind him that Im not. Everytime he calls me "Babe" I ignore him or I'll tell him not to call me that. Now he wrecked the Fucking Cadillac and it may be a total loss!! The damn car is on my Insurance!!! Now I have to deal with my premiums going up or hell the insurance just may cancel my policy!! What The Fuck!!! I knew I should have removed his car I knew it!! Too late now!!! Now is he really trying to kiss my butt and talk sweet to me and Im not trying to hear it!! I don't want to hear it!! Now matter how much I want to believe him, Im not going to do it!! Im not!! Im tired, I am really really tired! I was the one that sat with our little girl in the hospital the WHOLE time! He showed up at 3 in the morning Sunday just as they were getting ready to do the surgery and he stayed till the end. But that was it!! I was the one who took care of her I was the one who rushed her back to the ER I was the one who had to patiently deal with her cries when I had to change her bandages!! I DID IT! Where the fuck was he?? Hell Who Knows!!

Im too sleepy to write anymore right now... and I am still at work at 5:20, since I missed yesterday to catch up on sleep I am trying not to use my Vac or Sick time so I am busting my ass making up the hours.