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Alex really has been treating me alot better actually pretty good. I just can't get over how bad he had been to me (the cheating, cursing at me, disrepecting me, ect.). I told him today that I just can't be with him and he looked really heart broken. We had this talk on Sunday night but Monday morning we "still together" you know. But this time I told him that I was being serious. I feel bad because he really has been trying hard to prove to me that he wants to be with me and I just drop him, you know? But I just can't handle being with anyone right now. I went through too much for him and I just don't feel like it was worth it. *HOLD ON!! IT WAS I GOT ALAYNA OUT OF IT* I wouldn't trade her for the world. But you know what I mean! ;)

Well my son went to the Science Place Tuesday with his school and I hoping for him to come home and have a long exciting story that may have started like this "Momma, we went on a field trip and we played...." but all I got was : Me: "How was your field trip, baby?" My son: "Yea we went on a field trip" ... long pause... Me: "Did you have fun, honey?" My son: "Yea" WHERE'S THE EXCITEMENT?!?!?! He went on a field trip last week to the Ghetto Dallas Zoo....hahahaha .... and on my gosh he still talks about it till this day!! "mommy I saw a giraffe" "mommy I saw a tiger and a monkey, ect" And I was sooo excited to see what happened at the Science Place and all I got was a YEA. :<

Serina is soooo like Alex. She'll tell me "Momma, you're Cinderella and Im Pricess" hahaha and I have nooooo idea where she got this from but she'll tell me "Seeexxy momma" haha... then out of the blue she says "Momma you're pretty" oh oh oh and then we'll go "Nena you're so pretty" and she says "Thank you momma" then I'll say "Nena why are you so pretty" and she says "Because of momma" hahaha

IS THERE A SUCH THING AS LOVING YOUR CHILDREN TOO MUCH??? I hate it when they are gone!!