Continued.....

Ok about my post earlier, I did feel really really bad that no one came out to see me or the baby but had enough time to go out or get laid but at the same time I shouldn't expect everyone to stop or change their plans because I went out and got pregnant. I still love ya'll and would do anything for ya'll but I'm guessing is that post-partum depression-crap-thing that pregnant women get when they feel like everyone forgets or doesn't care about them or the baby or that Im on the monthly shit. I know ya'll may think about me and "wanted" to see us but just didn't (you know). I don't know. But I do appreciate the thoughts and prayers ya'll do for me(us).

Well things have been going great for me lately. Alex is making his way back into my life and knows that I will never forget or may never forgive him for how he treated me but he has been there for me. He has dumped that Judy chick for good and I know that for a fact, he's there for the girls and my son and when I ask for something he doesn' hesitate or question it, its like he is the same guy that I first fell for. Sometimes when I get mad and I remind him that I hate him for everything he did to me, he doesn't argue but he tries to hold me and tell me how sorry he is and how he is trying to do everything to try and make it up to me. Im not with him right now but he sure is making it hard for me to stay away from him. He knows I am scared of him hurting me again and I am just glad he isn't rushing me to be with him or to "give-in" to him.