Its like we've known each other FOREVER!

Last Friday I came home to my grandmother asking me "You will never guess who called me, never in a million years!" So me, being as smart as I am, it only took two guesses! "Great grandma" her -"NO" me- "ummm, Anna" her- "Anna who, which Anna" I never knew we knew so many Anna's! Me- "My uncles baby's mamma" Well, my uncles has so many children floating around out there. A couple of months ago, Joseph, contact my grandmother and since we have only met him once, he's hard to get a hold of. Well since last Friday me and my cousins have been talking everyday! Its like we've known each other this whole time! She has my personality! Oh YEA! Get this, I picked her up that Saturday after work and we went to the store to get some drinks for my nieces B-day party and I was looking at the plastic forks and stuff (looking for the cheapest ones with my broke butt) and I asked her to grab the paper cups. LOL remind you she is 9+ months pregnant, she grab the cups from the bottom and the cups that were stacked ON TOP OF IT came tumbling down! She threw the cups at me and ran behind me saying "I didn't do it!" hahaha Man we had so much fun!! She has a real smart mouth (in a funny way)!! I hate the fact that they were not around before, we missed out on so much fun, I know it! Well, her name is Victoria, she has a 11 month old boy Erik and she has another boy on the way. My other cousin looks just like my uncle and his name is Ignacio, yea I don't know how to spell it but I call him NACHO, Nacho con queso, Nacho bean. He hates it but I love it! hahaha

Now Fidel has been acting nice to me. I still have my guard up though. I am not going to act the way he has been just because I THINK/FEEL that things may be going "my" way. Lord knows once I do that He'll knock me right back down! LOL I am not that type of person anyways but just seeing that that's what happened to Fidel, it can happen to me too! You know! I take advantage of it, especially for my children's sake!

Alex, it never ends! We were talking for a bit, you know, trying to see if its something that we can work out. But I guess I have gotten use to me doing what I need to do without him. You know. So everything he tries to do, say or make me believe I let it go in one ear and out the other. So we are back on the baby momma/baby daddy relationship. I just don't have time for anyone else in my life. Its me and my children, THAT'S IT!
My family, especially my mom, think I need to do things for them on top of what I already have going for me. Ummmm NO! I don't have any money/time/energy for them! They aren't helping me (money, baby sitting, even their time) but they want me to bend over backwards. NOPE not gonna do it! I love them to death and I am not talking trash about them. Its just the honest truth, I can't! They are mad because I didn't take part in the Secret Santa, I told them I had no extra money so they are making faces and I can imagine talking behind my back. But OH WELL! I was BARELY able to get my children anything, let alone someone else! I spent MAX $22 on their presents!