Just Pray For Me!

My weekend had its up and downs... mainly ups because I had my children, other than that it sucked! I've been put in a scary situation that I have been in before but I am at least making an attempt to get myself out before it gets worse. Please don't ask me what it is because its something I really don't want to open up about but I just need you to pray for strength for me. It has me really thinking about what I care about the most and what I want for me and my children. Is this something I want my children around? Is this what I really want for ME? Is this the best I can do? Don't I deserve to be happy? Does God want me wait to see changes? God has everyone's life planned out, is this what I am meant to have? What do I deserve? You know... I know I deserve better or am I making myself think that way?