Mind blowing!

I just finished reading ALL my blogs that I ever posted and talk about mind blowing! I was a stupid stupid insecure little "girl" back then and I see how weak I was before I actually started living for Him! Wow God certainly makes us stronger and wiser and we don't even realize it. I was reading and I saying to myself "why did I believe him? Was I really that ignorant to wait for him? NEVER AGAIN" and when I say that I mean it! NEVER AGAIN! But I am stronger and I have a better MAN in my life and He is not going anywhere AGAIN! I will continue to put Him first, do my tithes every check, read the Bible, pray, and have Faith that no matter what comes my way I will have my God first! He's the Man of my life! No one has ever taken care of me, taken me in their arms, or even had as much Love for me like He has! So why let Him go? Why not put Him first? Why? I remembered when I would cry every night that I was pregnant wondering why I was going through what I was going through, I didn't deserve it! Guess what I DIDN'T!! I put my self there, I didn't allow myself to believe anyone could treat me with respect, to have unconditional LOVE for me, to care about me and to actually put ME first! Now that I have God first in my life, I believe in all that now, I expect it all now, I want it all now, I deserve it!