Thanks to a friend

I can finally update!  LOL 

Well, since my trial me and my kids have struggled and got through hard times but all that is paying off!  With all the wonderful friends in my life my children had a wonderful Christmas.  I havent had my kids the past 3 Christmas(s) due to all the court and custody changes we were going through and I was really feeling bad cause I couldnt get my kids really anything.  But thankfully my friends and family pulled through for us and we had a Christmas tree, decorations including stockings donated to us and they had plenty of present!    I also recieved gifts and I was blown away and so happy!

THANK YOU!!!!

The Lord has continued to bless me and my children in many ways that I would've never believed!!  My children are happy, I am happy.

My brother release date is April 18th. Thank the Lord.  His first child is due any day now and she is having contractions and ready to burst.  He's sad but he understands that he did it to himself and his family.  He is ready to get out, hold his first baby and be the man his new family needs!

Alex still hasnt gotten a answer on his parole yet.  I have mixed feelings on him getting out.  He really wants to be with me and the kids and says he's ready to be the man WE need him to be, put our needs first and attend every Sunday service with US.  But Im scared for many reasons:

1) Ive been through this TALK with him before
2) I want to give him that chance but is it going to be worth it
3) if I dont give him this chance will I regret it?
4) if I do move on, who will want a working 50+ hrs a week mother of 3?
5) will I be alone forever and never find the man that will love me and respect my children?

I need and want feed back on this.  With everything that I have been through, me doing everything on my own without a man, I have grown to be a independent, strong mother!  So I know I can do this with out him and with me keeping my Lord first I will be alright but I just wonder what everyone else thinks ya know.

Do you believe taken away from your family and knowing what you had is there supporting you, would change a person?