Lets see...

I wrote Alex and told him that he needs to understand that I can't be with him.  There is no way I can let go of the past, all the hurt and all the lies especially while he is in jail.  But honestly I still would want to visit him and write him.  I honestly feel he needs to know there is still someone out here to support him and will help him.  If I do turn my back on him, he is just going to go back to the way he was and never change, I dont want that.  He is still the father of my girls.  Not saying I will do everything for him or fall for anything he may say or do BUT just knowing that someone has that support for you can help keep the person on the right track.  His mom and them are obviously only there to put money on his books. 

Its weird writing this cause I know my mindset and everyone who may read this may think, yep she is still dumb! LOL  No, its not like that.  Im more less being a friend.  I would never turn my back on my friends, I would support their decisions and help however I can.  That's what I am doing for Alex.  I want him to get his life right, I want him to learn how to support himself and I want him to know that there is someone there ready and willing to help him.  HELP not do everything for him, only help!