Who's around when I need them??

I didn't get as many responses on my baby's picture like I thought I would. But I guess that's how it works when you want to brag about your children nowadays. But I know I have beautiful children and don't need any responses to prove it to me. Anyways, went to church and Lisa was my "note-taker" during service! hahaha I had my hands full with my baby and couldn't write and flip through the Bible. THANKS LISE!! I've been having drama like usual and church really turned everything around for me last night. I don't feel this heavy burden like I did before I went last night. I've missed a week of church and just really have been missing it!
Me and Lisa have really clicked every since we started emailing each other and I have just realized (now that I really stopped to think about it) she is the only one I really talk to and see or even posts on my blog! No one calls to at least make sure I'm sane, wants to actually do something without drinking and livin' the night life. As you can tell, I don't do or want to do those things anymore and I feel like Lisa and Jamal really understand and is still there! Before I got pregnant EVERYONE would call to see what I was doing, where I wanted to go drink at, ect. and promised "Just because your pregnant/or had your baby doesn't mean we wouldn't call you or see you anymore". Can you see where I am confused with this "friend" thing?? Everyone knows what a difficult time I am going through and its hard! I have a chance of losing my children to some A*hoe that lies and is out just to hurt me and is not considering my children being affected at all! I'm paying out my butt court fees, lawyer fees, co-parenting guy fees ($150/hr) and so far we have had 3 hrs scheduled with him and I still have to provide for my children everything they need. I need my friends there! My family is caught up in their own lives that all I can depend on to keep me from falling apart are Alex's family and MY friends.
Lisa, I just want you to know that your friendship means so much to me. Everyday we email, occasional church "dates" (haha), you always having an open invitation, and just being my friend even with my prayers, my God, my children YOU help me get through EVERYTHING I go through everyday! Without your friendship being there constantly I don't know if I would be this strong! THANK YOU!
And Jamal- I know we don't talk to each other on the phone or see each other outside of work, but your emails and advice is the world to me! I love being able to get a male's opinion and honest answers even if I don't like it! haha You always have an open mind, ready to make me laugh and always with an open invitation for me to come to you and you'll ALWAYS be there! THANK YOU!