Its final, done deal, Im officially single...

Now I have told some of what happened and received many responses. I take blame for me over reacting and causing the situation, when I should have just let it go. Now that doesn't mean he's right for what he did and I deserved it! Not at all! But I should have just let it go. Well I talked to him last night and asked for forgiveness and he asked the same. All is forgiven. We agree to be separated and let each other think things through and still be there for one other, the communication will still be open and respect each other. We agreed that maybe once my divorce is final and his too, we can try and make things work. We love each other so much and want to be a family together. But if I can't let go of the past, see his changes and not argue with him all the time~~ it will never work! He has things he needs to take care of, stress cannot take place with him right now because he will end up in the hospital (health reasons) and priorities he needs to get together. We gave each other a loooong, warm and loving hug and said good bye. I admit after he left, I cried so hard and prayed a short prayer for myself. It hurts more for some reason when both know that they can't be together at that present time but they want to so badly. I prayed that God completely takes over my life, take away the anger I have, take away all the stress of my life, to heal me and to fill me with his spirit everyday so that I may live for Him COMPLETELY. I feel the change I do but time will tell. How can I expect God to bless me if I can't give my complete self to Him?? I give what I want and live for the flesh. God doesn't want half of me, He wants ALL of me. I have changed what I wanted about me for Him but I need to give it all. I was living in the life called Adultery and I am not and cannot do it anymore. If me and Alex are meant for each other, God will bring us together. But if God has someone else in mind or no one at all, I will find out and it will be a blessing either way. I never stopped and thought about it but Adultery is a serious problem especially in God's eyes. I gave it up! Now watch how he will change me!