Its been a week...

And again when it was my time to pick up my children, my son was happy to leave with his mommy! Thank God! Lord, knows how hard it has been on me. Since I have been making more time with my children during the week (rather than rushing to get things done) I feel more relaxed, my children enjoy playing with me more and I get done STILL around the same time I always have been. Funny how that works out?

Well, it still isn't really sinking into Alex's head that I am not with him and he can't control me anymore. He really flipped out last Wednesday when I picked up my little girl and he was trying to "talk" to me and I just brushed him off and kept walking away. Its hard to be strong and stand up for what you believe in, especially alone. You know. I know I have friends but when I am alone and face someone I had once given my heart to and trusted with it and actually say "No, I am not going to take it anymore" and follow through, its hard. He calls me pretending he doesn't know what's going on. For instance, this morning, he calls me at 7:30 and says he is going to spend the day with the girls *that blew my mind* then he asked me "Can I take you out on a date?" of course, I tell him no and I have too much to do. I just dont' know how to be cold-hearted and mean so I let him down softly. Its like he wants me to forget that I left him and to see he is changing AGAIN and just let things be. But I am not this time, its been a good month or so and he still acting as if though things are good between us. What to do, what to do?

Oh my goodness! Now I didn't not know that prizes were going to be given every week, PROMISE! My church is doing a campaign on how many visitors we bring in and I brought the second most visitors last week and got a certificate to Walmart. Lets just say I bought my children what they needed plus some! haha I was so happy you should have seen me, I was tearing up the childrens sections and bought my baby a toy that hooks up to the carriage!! She loves it!! My children love the stuff I got them!!! My son got Batman and Cars underwear and a jacket, then my girl got some socks and some cute T's pink, white and yellow ones!! They were opening them like it was Christmas!! That felt so good!

So all in all, Im great!!!
God Bless!!