Quick update

Ok Alex was transferred to Sugar land, Tx.  Which is about 4 hours away!!!  He thought he was getting out but its just another transferred.  His family I guess panicked and his mom offered to buy dinner Tuesday night, and they were too busy to watch my kids so that I could work the MUCH needed OT BUT then called me Saturday morning saying "You can bring the girls after 5"....  DEEP BREATH...  "I wont be able to"  response "Huh??" and I said again "Im sorry I wont be able to"...  " Ummm ok"...  "Ok bye! (in a cheery voice)"   So I think when his mother comes at 8 tomorrow night to bring dinner I am going to have a talk with her and tell him that I am not a charity case and if you cant come and spend time with the girls on at least Alex's weekends then Id rather not have them come by and drop off food especially when they eat AT the restaurant first and then bring the food by!!  We eat dinner at 6 and she doesn't come till after 7:30... she's bought the kids dinner twice before and both times asked what time we eat dinner and I have told her 6 but she doesn't come till after 7:30....  Its like they are always taking care of his sisters kids and they are too busy for my girls then makes up excuses that they cry at night.... Well who ever said they HAD to spend the night??  Whatever, I just need to know if they are gonna spend time with them or not!!  Serina is feeling pretty left out since my son always goes to his father's house and Alex isn't around and she is always with me, which I love!!!  I just want her to have somewhere to go when my son isn't around so that she feels wanted ya know.  But apparently its too much too ask.  They are always taking her sister, Natalie, out skating, swimming and stuff so what is so hard about taking her sister??  If I have to pay for wherever they are going, just let me know!!!    I really just needed to vent and put it out there cause its just not fair to my girls!!

Ever since my sister left her husband its like she forgot that I have to work OT, she doesn't watch my kids anymore cause she is too busy partying with my mom.  Needless to say me and my mom are not talking.  I hate that our relationship has always been like this, I grew up with her always putting me down, over working me, never paying attention to me and everything was my fault.  "Its her life, she is always busy" and to me that mean I/my family and me are not apart of her life and when I pointed that out to her, she ignored that and say "I can't help if you are stuck in your ways"  WHAAAAT?  So, I just let her be, she wont change, she never will and I am tired of trying to make her be a part of my life....

I missed church last Sunday cause I hurt my back and was in pain up until Saturday, I think I just needed to rest and relax my back so today I am feeling better.  I went to church yesterday, I love being there its like it reenergizes me for the week!!  I love it!!!  I feel good, its going to be a good week, I know it!!  It has too!