If I didn't have my friends and my aunt there, I think I would have broke down on my birthday weekend.  Lisa and Ana were the main ones there for me and kept me going.  Friday night, we went out, yes I know I know I have been gaining weight, well it was obvious when my pants ripped! hahaha  Yes, they ripped!  So that didn't help the rest of my night. I will just leave that at that.

 

Then Saturday, I had mainly planned for my family to be with me but my friends were more than welcomed to come.  Well, let me start by saying that day I knew I had to make some changes for myself, I've always done WAY TOO much for my brother and dad that when I called them to see if they were coming, it was like a knife in my heart and they twisted it to make it hurt more.  They didn't come.  My Aunt, April, her friend and Marcus (1) came out and we had a great time!!  But after they left, I was alone and cried the rest of the weekend.  How could my family not want to be there for ME!  I mean it was suppose to be my day, I wanted to be with them! 

 

So its all about me and my kids and everyone who has never let me down and has stood by my side and been there for me and my kids.  I can't do it anymore.  I've prayed about it and I just feel, its time for me to let go and keep moving on with my kids and my life.