I gave it to Him last night!!

Ok you all know me and know what I have been through! Last night I finally just broke down. I haven't cried like that in forever! I prayed with all my heart to God and told him that I give up that I am leaving everything in his hand now, I can't do it anymore. I feel asleep and woke up this morning feeling good for some odd reason but I just kept telling myself that its just going to be just like any other day, don't get your hopes up. I have been stressing this whole time on how I was going to pay my car note, daycare, rent and get enough money to pay my grandmother at least some of the money that I owe her, and all that had to be done on this check. Well I got to work and pulled up the internet to go ahead and send off my bills and GUESS WHAT!!! I actually got my income tax check!! Just to remind you, I owe on a school loan I haven't paid on in at least a year and I owe Child Support so I thought the gov. was going to keep my check. My monthly car note, my grandmother/rent and my son's childcare is paid!!! I even bought a crib for the baby, Amelia a lady here that I work with sold hers to me for $25! How could I pass that up!!! I don't have to worry about gas or food for the next two weeks!! Now for those who don't believe that God won't take care of you, I have just proved you wrong TODAY!!

God works when you let him work in your life! I was too busy trying to do it on my own, with no help, thinking I was "alone"! I was never alone, I never let God help me, I didn't let him show me that this was something he could take care of for me!

Now I don't mean to offend anyone that has helped me! Some of ya'll would surprise me with things that were just for me and gave me rides when I was in need, was that shoulder I was able to cry on, that ear that was always ready to listen. I appreciate ya'll sooooo much! I wish ya'll knew how much ya'll mean to me and how good it felt when you didn't hesitate one bit to lend a helping hand! But being as hard headed as I am, I kept in my mind that I had to do it on my own, I didn't want to bother ya'll with my needs. I love ya'll so much and hope that if you have any problems or troubles or situations that you feel that you are alone in, please stop and see God is always there for you! Just as your friends here are but God wants to be the One that helps you, he wants to be your friend.

I LOVE YA'LL!!! KEEP YOUR HEAD UP I know I will from now on!!