LIFE....
need I say more!
Ok ok okokok..... Things seem to still fall down on me! I need prayers!! Lots and lots of prayers!! I'm trying to stay strong and sane, which for the most part I am but a part of me just wants to let go and give up. I know I am never going to do that but its just how I feel.
Ex.
1. I have my children Sun-Wed. *crying* This is the 2nd time my son fought to come with me. He even said " I don't love momma " that just killed me inside. The 1st time my ex was nice enough ( I know I know AMAZING) to drop him off at my house and my son was fine he played with me and had a great time. This time he absolutely did NOT want to get in my car and come. I even went back Monday after my chiropractor appt still no luck! I spent over an hour trying to get him to come with me. So I didn't have him this time but I am going to make another attempt to get him this weekend! I need my son! I need my time with him! I need to find out why he doesn't want to come! I can't handle my child not wanting momma! He loves me I know he does but why is he acting this way! How can I get my son to want to come with me?? I don't need this.
2. Alex was putting Serina in the car when I picked them up and he says (talking to Serina) "at least you want to spend time with me" Do you care how hurt I am?!?! Why would you say something so hurtful like that knowing how much I love my children?!?!
Am I going crazy?!? I need to learn how to pray more and to give it all to Him and have faith! I've changed my life but I still haven't learned to LIVE for him! You know.
*OPEN INVITATION*
Sun-Thurs 8/13-8/17
Trinity Baptist Church
Arlington, Tx
Revelation Conference Week! Come out hear the Word of God, its all about the book of Revelation! Its going to be great!! If you would like to come leave me your email address and I will send you the address and maybe some directions! ;)
Ok ok okokok..... Things seem to still fall down on me! I need prayers!! Lots and lots of prayers!! I'm trying to stay strong and sane, which for the most part I am but a part of me just wants to let go and give up. I know I am never going to do that but its just how I feel.
Ex.
1. I have my children Sun-Wed. *crying* This is the 2nd time my son fought to come with me. He even said " I don't love momma " that just killed me inside. The 1st time my ex was nice enough ( I know I know AMAZING) to drop him off at my house and my son was fine he played with me and had a great time. This time he absolutely did NOT want to get in my car and come. I even went back Monday after my chiropractor appt still no luck! I spent over an hour trying to get him to come with me. So I didn't have him this time but I am going to make another attempt to get him this weekend! I need my son! I need my time with him! I need to find out why he doesn't want to come! I can't handle my child not wanting momma! He loves me I know he does but why is he acting this way! How can I get my son to want to come with me?? I don't need this.
2. Alex was putting Serina in the car when I picked them up and he says (talking to Serina) "at least you want to spend time with me" Do you care how hurt I am?!?! Why would you say something so hurtful like that knowing how much I love my children?!?!
Am I going crazy?!? I need to learn how to pray more and to give it all to Him and have faith! I've changed my life but I still haven't learned to LIVE for him! You know.
*OPEN INVITATION*
Sun-Thurs 8/13-8/17
Trinity Baptist Church
Arlington, Tx
Revelation Conference Week! Come out hear the Word of God, its all about the book of Revelation! Its going to be great!! If you would like to come leave me your email address and I will send you the address and maybe some directions! ;)
posted by Crystal @ 6:59 AM
7 Comments:
At 7:45 AM,
Unknown said…
YES! You always need to say more.
I HATE ONE LINERS!!!
At 8:52 AM,
Lisa said…
i dont' even know what to say...i'd be upset too! *at a loss of words* (shocking, i know.)
At 9:42 AM,
Unknown said…
Better! I can't say that I understand what you're going through, because I'm not a mother, but I'm sure it hurts all the same.
If it's any consolation, I feel the exact same way when my dog goes to someone else instead of coming to me. Her momma
(Please don't take this is as me comparing your child to a dog. I was just trying to let you know I could semi feel your pain)
At 3:07 PM,
Anonymous said…
If I was closer, I might come.
I am so sorry to her about your son. That is so hard. I mean, you know you shouldn't take it personally but as a mother, it is hard not to get hurt feelings.
At 7:38 PM,
123 said…
Pray for God's wisdom with this. He longs to fill us with HIS wisdom. Then, remember, if you are saved, you have the wonderful gift of Grace so don't beat yourself up. He looks at our hearts. Be strong and loving with your kids and have patience. God will show you, I have faith! I had my daughter at 22, then divorced when she was 4. I decided to stay single till she graduated from high school and make her my focus. I knew as a Christian that your husband comes first and I wasn't willing to put her 2nd on my list until she was raised. It all worked out well. I had a very successful career and found a wonderful Christian man and married when my daughter graduated! It all worked out, however it wasn't without bumps. keep your eyes on HIM! I will pray for you!
At 11:40 AM,
123 said…
Yes, I would be happy if you added me to your list! I have been praying for you! Don't let fear or depression creep up on you. They are faith stealers. I have found the best way to avoid those pitfalls it to find out who I am in Christ. Remember....HE chose us first long before we knew Him. When I learned that truth I realized how much he loves me and knows me. Find who you are in Him. Things will fall into line a whole lot easier if you do...I will continue to pray for you! God Bless! Dana
At 1:53 PM,
Unknown said…
Nope, didn't forget! I'm such the smartie pants, because I have it written down on my calendar. So...ha!
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