WHY CANT PEOPLE GROW UP!!

GRRRR! Why can't I have a normal day off?? I went to my son's school yesterday at 7 in the morning because his teacher had some concerns she need to discuss with me. My ex-husband, we'll call him F*face, has been giving his teacher grief about who I have picking up my children. My uncle helps me pick my son up from school so that I can stay at work and KEEP MY JOB! She feels like she is getting dragged in the middle of this and that my son is getting affected too by the way "me" and F*face are handling our divorce. Now everyone who really knows me know that I am always trying to compromise and make things easier for my children. But of course the teacher doesn't know that and I don't blame her for feeling like this. I talked to her and explained it to her that I have made arragements for a daycare to pick up my son from school from now on and she shouldn't have anymore problems. I feel like she knows what I am going through with F*face, but she cant take sides or really say anything for that matter because she is only suppose to be concerned with my son. You know what I mean?

I also had a meeting with the Social worker handling my case. I don't think it went as well as I planned it. I had everything I was needed to tell her in my head but as soon as she started asking questions, I got scared, started to say "uuuhhh" after almost every 3 words. So I feel like she thinks I may be lying or being fake. But when she asked what concerns do I have with my children, Booooy, did she mess up. I gave her a whole list of things. So pray that everything goes right.

Oh, and I had a doctors appt yesterday and the baby's head is already down. Which means she is getting ready to tear mommy a new asshoe!! hahaha Nothing should happens still for at least another 4 weeks though so I have time to plan and get things organized. I told A*hoe about the vistit. Oh he was pissed off that I had my phone off since the night before and I didnt turn it back on until I called him about 4pm. I told him what the doctor said and he is excited and said he is going to start getting girl clothes and things prepared too. YEA RIGHT until the next bitch comes around*thinking this in my head*... He then started jumping my ass about my phone being off and I told him he can talk to his B* like that and he doesn't pay my phone bill so I can have it off, on, silent, whatever whenever I WANT. He didn't like that too much and hung up on me. OH FUCKING WELL! I turned my phone off again, TAKE THAT! I turned it back on after about 7:30 last night and he called me and asked me if I would come by his house so that he could see me and I told him no. He told me good night and hung up. He called again later that night and asked for a ride home because he cousin had picked him up and was getting ready to go out and he didn't want to. Of course my DUMB ASS got up and took him home. We got there and he started kissing me and ..... YES I FUCKED UP!!! I HAVE NEEDS, ESPECIALLY BEING PREGNANT!! So after we were done I kicked him out like I had just used him. He told me he "loved" me and I said "bye" and I left and went home in pain! Those damn Braxton Hicks or it was just the sex ;)! I was up for a couple of hours and finally fell asleep.

Remind me to tell ya'll what happened between me and my grandmother. I have to go back to "work".

Love Ya!

What the heck!!

Ok... that did it! I just wrote a huuuuuuge long blog about my day yesterday and I did a stupid spellcheck(you know so that I wouldnt look too stupid!hahaha) and guess what!! Why did a whole new post appear with NOTHING!!! Everything I typed is gone! GRRRR!! Breathe Breathe, 10-9-8-7-6-5-4-3-2-1-0 ... damn it there is nothing past 0!! Ok lets try this again!

Its me

Hi!!! This is my address I guess.... Im still working on this!! I don't know how this crap works! THANKS K !!! I appreciate you helping this poor blog-retard out!

http://thisisastart.blogspot.com/

Well this is my first attempt so FORGIVE ME!

Ok, now Staci, you have "influenced" me! Since you moved I have been wanting to create one of these things and now I HAVE DONE IT!

Now that's off my chest!;) Today has been one of those days that I just want to go lock myself in a room and just cry. For those of you who aren't up-to-date with me, I AM PREGNANT!! I am 7 months now and ready to have my beautiful baby girl, Alayna. I found out AGAIN about 2 weeks ago that my baby daddy, we'll call him A-hoe, is fu**ing around on me with the same chick! He practically tossed me to the curb and now for the passed couple of days he has been telling me he "loves" me and "wants" to be with me. BLAHBLAHBLAH. But I guess with me being pregnant and all I feel like I want to go back to him! I CAN'T I CAN'T I CAN'T!!! I can't go back to him and have him treat me like crap!! I am having his second child!! Does that mean anything? Apparently not.

I finally went out, after being on "lock down" for about 5 months, on Friday and I had a blast!! I had men buying me drinks (which I promise ya'll I didn't even take a sip) and wanting to dance with me. Can ya'll see Im pregnant? But it felt good that I can attract men or have anyone attracted to me, ME. I haven't had that feeling in a very long time. Am I attractive to someone? Or is it just that Ass growing from this pregnancy?? hahaha I was around my friends I haven't seen in forever and it was just the thing I needed to feel good for a couple of hours. It was short lived but worth it!

Then we had a company party Saturday night and I was wearing a black dress that was georgeous. I had sooo many people compliment me that night I was like Who-In-The-Hell needs A-hoe!! But why is it that as soon as I leave I have then "NEED" to call him. And I did but of course he was busy luckily I said "for him to Fu** himself" and that made him hang up on me. I didn't know what to say, but I did it I called him, so I had to say something to piss him off.

Well my good good good friend, K, is out of state, should be moving in by March and I can't wait!!! I miss her and her children sooo much! I have been worried about her retarded Ass!! I know as soon as you read this you are going to want to kick my ass. But guess what I still have a month before I add you to my list of people I need to run from!! hahaha

Well that's it for now! Im just getting started, I have a feeling I will be back soon!!