Sorry.......

I know this was waay over-due. But here it goes, I went to court and we didn't even see the judge. Found out that my "husband" (my lawyer explained he is still my husband, so he still has that title) got anger management classes! FINALLY someone sees it! We all have to take parenting classes (which I don't mind I might learn something new with me have 3 kids and all, haha) Basically, my ex has nothing on me except that I am unstable, other than that I've Got This! So all-in-all it was pretty good! God takes care of his children!

Alex is being Alex.

My children are more talkative than usual. I mean OH MY GOODNESS, all I hear is "Where's Alayna? Momma I love you! Where's papi? I'm hungry! I wanna watch cartoons!" Ok, I just fed you, you know how to turn on the TV and Alayna is RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU! hahaha I love them to death but good gosh, ya'll would be so much cuter if it could just be quiet for 2 mins! hahaha

I was feeding Alayna right before I was going to bed and my 2 oldest ones (who were suppose to be asleep by the way) kept running in giving me a hug, yelling "I love you" as they ran back to their beds. It was like who can run the fastest and who would give up first. It was at least 20 times they did that! Never again will I give them a popsicle after 5pm!

Suddenly I am not so scared!

Today's verse of the Day- Biblegateway.com

" Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. "- Isaiah 41:10

I have court today and I this is just right on time! God knows how to comfort you in time of need!

There's something going on!

There has to be something going on!! I seriously think Fidel is paying this guy under the table!! That stupid guy we have to pay $150/hr for is full of it!! I feel like he has it in for me! When I mentioned to him JUST ONE of my concerns for my kids which was how he dresses them in inappropriate clothes (too big, too small, or not enough!). DO YOU KNOW WHAT HE TOLD ME!!!!! I explained my concern because there are perverts out there that don't give a damn how old the children are!! "Well as long as they are clothed then there's really nothing wrong. You know research shows the more the children are clothed, the more innocent they look the more they attract. Most girls in churches are molested or rape." WHAT THE HECK IS HE THINKING??!! I mean come on!! What kind of morals are you wanting for my little girl? I am paying YOU $150/hr to tell me some CRAP like that!!! Seriously!! Am I wrong on this??

I really don't want to explain the rest right now... still mad!

Who's around when I need them??

I didn't get as many responses on my baby's picture like I thought I would. But I guess that's how it works when you want to brag about your children nowadays. But I know I have beautiful children and don't need any responses to prove it to me. Anyways, went to church and Lisa was my "note-taker" during service! hahaha I had my hands full with my baby and couldn't write and flip through the Bible. THANKS LISE!! I've been having drama like usual and church really turned everything around for me last night. I don't feel this heavy burden like I did before I went last night. I've missed a week of church and just really have been missing it!
Me and Lisa have really clicked every since we started emailing each other and I have just realized (now that I really stopped to think about it) she is the only one I really talk to and see or even posts on my blog! No one calls to at least make sure I'm sane, wants to actually do something without drinking and livin' the night life. As you can tell, I don't do or want to do those things anymore and I feel like Lisa and Jamal really understand and is still there! Before I got pregnant EVERYONE would call to see what I was doing, where I wanted to go drink at, ect. and promised "Just because your pregnant/or had your baby doesn't mean we wouldn't call you or see you anymore". Can you see where I am confused with this "friend" thing?? Everyone knows what a difficult time I am going through and its hard! I have a chance of losing my children to some A*hoe that lies and is out just to hurt me and is not considering my children being affected at all! I'm paying out my butt court fees, lawyer fees, co-parenting guy fees ($150/hr) and so far we have had 3 hrs scheduled with him and I still have to provide for my children everything they need. I need my friends there! My family is caught up in their own lives that all I can depend on to keep me from falling apart are Alex's family and MY friends.
Lisa, I just want you to know that your friendship means so much to me. Everyday we email, occasional church "dates" (haha), you always having an open invitation, and just being my friend even with my prayers, my God, my children YOU help me get through EVERYTHING I go through everyday! Without your friendship being there constantly I don't know if I would be this strong! THANK YOU!
And Jamal- I know we don't talk to each other on the phone or see each other outside of work, but your emails and advice is the world to me! I love being able to get a male's opinion and honest answers even if I don't like it! haha You always have an open mind, ready to make me laugh and always with an open invitation for me to come to you and you'll ALWAYS be there! THANK YOU!

*wanna cry*

I can't get over how beautiful my children are. I have no updates on my other 3 children yet but this is my baby Alayna Rosalinda, now 3 1/2 months!

Busy Busy-Like Always

My week has been so so. It was either heck or very good! I had my children this weekend and had a blast with them. We watched movies Friday, Saturday went to the Science Place, mall then watched movies at home. Sunday went to Lisa's about 2:30 and had a great time, my kids went swimming, played with her dog and we made chili cheese hotdogs and ended that with some banana fudge icecream which I had to put in a bowl for my kids because one fell off the stick (luckily I was outside and it fell on the ground and not her carpet!). Some drama on the way home with my brother, which was with me at Lisa's but its all good, brother and sister thing I guess. Monday worked! :( Tuesday worked :( Yes I worked on 4th of July!! Sucked but I got off at 1. Went to my house had a bar-b-que, went to Alex's sisters, then to my dad's then ended the night at Alex's cousin where we did our little firework show for all the people there who did buy anything and all the kids were running around enjoying it! It felt good knowing they wouldn't have seen any fireworks if we hadn't of did ours there. Then Alex decided that night he wanted to talk alllllll night! From the time we got to my house 10:30 till 2 am we TALKED about everything you can think of!!

Ok, well I will have to update this later!