YESTERDAY'S POST....

I stuck my foot in my mouth! I hate it when I start to get happy for myself, things just start to fall apart!

Im so HAPPY and its ALL about ME (right now)

Everyone knows how hard everything has been on me and my children for at least 2 yrs. And I just knew the Lord was going to change things around for me this year. You know when you know something great is going to happen and you just can't shake the feeling well I had that feeling since the beginning of the year. I knew it was going to be about US this year! Well, even though I went from a home with our own rooms to none; to having at least some money to buy my kids some McDonald on the weekends I pick them up to not being able to afford the dollar menu anymore. BUT, I have tried so hard not to let anything get me down and I am somewhat succeeding. I've made it further than I would have ever imagined! I surprised myself! hahaha Well first off, I was able to get a girls night with Lisa a couple of weeks ago that I haven't been able to do for a long time and it was so relaxing. Second, I have more support at the home I am living at now than I did when I was living with my grandmother. Third, Alex has made some serious changes (still needs A LOT) and has really helped me and the kids. Fourth, I have come closer to God than I ever thought I would. Fifth, I got so much from Alex for Valentines, reason why I was so surprised is because I never really thought that he really thought of me you know. Sixth, now I am really excited about this, Lisa has invited me to the MAVS game on March 3rd and OH MY GOD, I have ALWAYS wanted to go to a game.

This is what I am trying to get at... For so long, I have busted my butt, put up with so much, only took care of my kids, and still struggling to keep going that I have never had time for ME. And this year has been turning for me and it feels so amazing you know. The reason my kids benefit from this is because sometimes a mother can take on so much and never feel appreciated and when something happens without you knowing or asking for YOU it takes so much stress off of you and you see how people really think of you. So momma is getting taking care of a little which makes momma a little more enjoyable for her kids. Do you get it?? I DO!

Thank you Lord for showing me the great things that can come out of any and all struggles that I may face and the wonderful friends and family you have placed with me to help keep me going.

POSTPONED AGAIN!

Ok I am soooo mentally, physcally AND emotionally tired! Lets just say I was in the clinic with my daughter till about 8:30 SINCE baby daddy didn't take her (he was too busy) and I had to get her prescriptions and didn't get to bed till 10:30 and of course she is fussy all night because she has ear infection in both ears and her throat is sore because of the congestion so not a good night. Then people here at my job want to "attack" me when I tell them to WORK! THEN my lawyer calls me, the trial has been POSTPONED and hopefully we'll get a trial date in March! Ummm how about NOW! I am ready I am tired I need this done!

Im freakin' out!!!!

Ok I have about a week left till Trial next Wednesday, Happy Valentines Day to me! I am so scared, I know Im a great, loving and caring mother but its the fact NOT KNOWING what is going to happen! I need so much from everyone right now! Prayers, Prayers and Prayers! I have court tomorrow and Wednesday, one is a pre-trial hearing and the other is for this fee I forgot to pay to Fidel's lawyer since we were not able to work anything out at Mediation so I have to pay for his lawyers time being there! They are so good about draining money out of me that they failed to realize that they are taking away from my kids! But God has been providing and my kids have what they need. This is a short post, I have so much running through my head that I can't really think straight!

Oh yea and Saturday I went to Lisa's and MAN it was so good to have some me time! Even though we spent TWO HOURS at Walmart for a oil change! hahaha But I had my cholocate milk (originally a fudge sundae) and she had hers with some fries! Yea she's weird but Gotta Love Her! hahaha