And again No Baby

Ok ok ok, now the doctor is really working my nerves! Doesn't he understand that these contractions I am having are just a little bit PAINFUL! When he told me I was having my baby Friday I was soo excited, but now I have to wait till today's visit to find out when I am going to have my baby?!?! YOU TOLD ME FRIDAY!!! Oh well, it just wasn't time, I guess. I think he is trying to make money off of me because he wants to see me every 2 days to keep an eye on the baby, and each visit costs me $30. So I am going to tell him today that if he doesn't induce then he will not see me until I am in the hospital pushing for dear life!!

My brothers B-day was Saturday and we threw a party for him and everyone got soooo drunk it was funny! They called me Sunday morning telling me how I just sat back and watched everyone drink knowing they were going to get f*ed up! hahaha And I did, Hey ya'll are grown you should know when to stop. HAHA I enjoyed every minute of it!! Ya'll want to drink in front of me and tell me "Mmmm this is some good shit" then you know what, I hope ya'll enjoyed the hang-over just as much as I enjoyed waking up feeling good and energetic!! hahaha I still love 'em!

Well I have officially picked someone to be in the hospital with me when I KNOW FOR SURE I AM HAVING THE BABY, I have asked my sister to do it and she practically cried on the phone when I asked her. I know I mentioned that I didn't want to be alone and I had some volunteers and I appreciate it soooo much but my sister means so much to me that I want her to see my last child born. Sometimes I feel like I am going to regret that I am not going to let Alex be in the room with me but at the same time, WHY? He hasn't done anything for me or this baby, he is still f*ing around with Judy (which by the way I got a phone call from Sunday morning), and he only came to maybe 2 doctor visits with me. That's it! So I feel like my sister is the best one to have there for ME! You know. Am I wrong? Do ya'll think Im going to regret this decision?

Its Time!! For Real this Time!!

haha I know I know... Ya'll have heard it before and even before that! But this time I am scheduled to induce my labor tomorrow after the appointment with the specialist at 1:30. Now if it changes its the doctors fault, NOT MINE!! Man, I just can't believe it, we are actually going to really see and meet my Alayna tomorrow. I am so anxious, and ya'll make me laugh so hard when I get text messages that say "I am going to call first" or "I'm gonna wait for you call" or "yea yea yea" hahaha I love ya'll!!

Oh, I wrote a blog all about Sunday's incident but for some odd reason it didn't post, sooo here it goes~~~

Ok now Saturday night, lets saaaaay 6pm, I started having contractions that were about 20 minutes apart, then come Sunday morning they were 4 minutes apart then about 12 or 1 they were 2 minutes apart. Sooooo I was "in labor" according to the hospital but did I have her Nooooo! Another false alarm! I had soo many people calling to check on me and her and I even has Lisa *aka* Stalker call the hospital to make sure I was ok. LMAO Love ya Lise!! Alex was basically my only ride to the hospital because I had to let my sister use my car to pick up my children. But it was kinda a good thing I did "Tag" him along because he had me laughing so hard I kinda forgot about the pain. Ex. As soon as we park he jumps out of the car and takes off and I yell "Where are you going" and he yells back at me with a smile and kinda a worried look "I'm getting you a wheel chair, you are having my baby" and I am laughing so hard that these guys that didn't see Alex or hear anything are looking at me crazy because I'm in the parking lot "alone" and laughing, holding my tummy.

Well I know this is a short one but I have to get back to work. I only have one day left and I have to get a lot done. But I will post while I am out on leave to keep ya'll update for those who don't know how to call anyone!! ;)

Im trying to stay "strong"

I feel like I am being tested by God now. I know I can get through this but why does everything have to fall all at one time. Well let me tell you the good news first. My baby shower was great! I/the baby got a bouncer, pack n' play set, clothes, bottles, bath set, a bath set for me too and monitors, ect. It was great! I got a lot of what I need and plus gift cards for the stuff I still need. I had a crown and a really cute baby shower thingy that you pin on me. I had fun!

Now, why is it that for the first time in my life I mailed in a check for my car payment (I usually pay online through my bank) and they "didn't receive it" for 3 weeks so I was "late" on my car note so I called and paid over the phone. Now why in the heck would my finance company (CapitolOne) send my check to Nissan and Nissan would cash that damn check! I don't have an account with nissan I have an account with CapitolOne!! I called Nissan to find out why and they gave me a BS answer about cashing the check and putting it in a "account" since they couldn't find an account to apply it to and now I have to wait for them to create that check and send it to me by mail and in the mean time I am over in my bank account and I had to pay $128 in insufficient funds and Nissan wont reimburse me for that. (Of course not its not their fault *being sarcastic*) Now I am with no money at all!! I can't even get gas in my car!! I felt like crying while I was waiting for 10 mins for a Supervisor to get on the phone. They never came on so I hung up, trust me I'm calling back later, I just can't handle it right now. I think my blood pressure just went up!

Oh then the stress here at my job! This whole time I have been fighting for "the Team" to get ATX to appreciate how hard we work and what they need to do to make them or keep them happy. Well what was their solution, put all the work on Mrs. L and give everyone an incentive and a raise while Mrs. L gets more work and didn't get as much of a raise as everyone else did. Oh and by the way I didn't get a raise and I still have no part in the incentive. Everyone else is now with less work more incentives and are they worried about me and Mrs. L, why would they be those selfish people. I'm trying to keep from going off on them but man its getting to the point where I just want to walk in the middle of the department and give them a piece of my mind. Oh and the part that really pisses me off they are now gossiping more and still complaining!! WHAT ARE YOU COMPLAINING ABOUT?!?!? You have at least 3 ways to get incentives and a DARN raise!!!!!

God please gives me patience and wisdom!!

Ok I need to breathe and have this baby and go on leave so that I'm at home and not here in this heck hole!