Im trying to stay "strong"

I feel like I am being tested by God now. I know I can get through this but why does everything have to fall all at one time. Well let me tell you the good news first. My baby shower was great! I/the baby got a bouncer, pack n' play set, clothes, bottles, bath set, a bath set for me too and monitors, ect. It was great! I got a lot of what I need and plus gift cards for the stuff I still need. I had a crown and a really cute baby shower thingy that you pin on me. I had fun!

Now, why is it that for the first time in my life I mailed in a check for my car payment (I usually pay online through my bank) and they "didn't receive it" for 3 weeks so I was "late" on my car note so I called and paid over the phone. Now why in the heck would my finance company (CapitolOne) send my check to Nissan and Nissan would cash that damn check! I don't have an account with nissan I have an account with CapitolOne!! I called Nissan to find out why and they gave me a BS answer about cashing the check and putting it in a "account" since they couldn't find an account to apply it to and now I have to wait for them to create that check and send it to me by mail and in the mean time I am over in my bank account and I had to pay $128 in insufficient funds and Nissan wont reimburse me for that. (Of course not its not their fault *being sarcastic*) Now I am with no money at all!! I can't even get gas in my car!! I felt like crying while I was waiting for 10 mins for a Supervisor to get on the phone. They never came on so I hung up, trust me I'm calling back later, I just can't handle it right now. I think my blood pressure just went up!

Oh then the stress here at my job! This whole time I have been fighting for "the Team" to get ATX to appreciate how hard we work and what they need to do to make them or keep them happy. Well what was their solution, put all the work on Mrs. L and give everyone an incentive and a raise while Mrs. L gets more work and didn't get as much of a raise as everyone else did. Oh and by the way I didn't get a raise and I still have no part in the incentive. Everyone else is now with less work more incentives and are they worried about me and Mrs. L, why would they be those selfish people. I'm trying to keep from going off on them but man its getting to the point where I just want to walk in the middle of the department and give them a piece of my mind. Oh and the part that really pisses me off they are now gossiping more and still complaining!! WHAT ARE YOU COMPLAINING ABOUT?!?!? You have at least 3 ways to get incentives and a DARN raise!!!!!

God please gives me patience and wisdom!!

Ok I need to breathe and have this baby and go on leave so that I'm at home and not here in this heck hole!